A year ago today
A year ago today at this moment, I was still married. Little did I know that in less than one hour, that would change. I would lose my precious husband, my best friend, my soulmate, to the enemy cancer.
A year ago today at this moment, I was taking care of him and getting him ready for the day. Everyone was to come here so we could have Christmas dinner together. I had some things all prepared and a few things were waiting to be prepared. The house was ready in expectation of grown children and grandchildren.
A year ago today at this moment, I was busy with the normal things of life that occur at this season of the year. I was thinking about tomorrow, and all the other tomorrows. I didn't realize that was about to change.
A year ago today at this moment, Brandon was helping me with Danny and noticed his knees has a red, rash looking area to them. Danny was pretty much limp and unresponsive while we cared for him, but he was alive. I knew that rash on the knees to be a sign of Danny's approaching death.
A year ago today at this moment, I didn't know how quickly death would take him from me. How suddenly he would be here ... then gone.
A year ago today at this moment, I didn't know a broken heart could last a year. Or longer.
A year ago today at this moment, I was taking care of him and getting him ready for the day. Everyone was to come here so we could have Christmas dinner together. I had some things all prepared and a few things were waiting to be prepared. The house was ready in expectation of grown children and grandchildren.
A year ago today at this moment, I was busy with the normal things of life that occur at this season of the year. I was thinking about tomorrow, and all the other tomorrows. I didn't realize that was about to change.
A year ago today at this moment, Brandon was helping me with Danny and noticed his knees has a red, rash looking area to them. Danny was pretty much limp and unresponsive while we cared for him, but he was alive. I knew that rash on the knees to be a sign of Danny's approaching death.
A year ago today at this moment, I didn't know how quickly death would take him from me. How suddenly he would be here ... then gone.
A year ago today at this moment, I didn't know a broken heart could last a year. Or longer.
Labels: Danny journal
posted by Ann crum @ 9:40 AM
10 Comments:
At 12/24/2006 9:53 PM,
Anonymous said…
You're in my thoughts today. {{{hugs}}}
At 12/24/2006 9:58 PM,
Anonymous said…
God Bless you, Ann, and watch over you during this difficult holiday season. I too have lost a loved one not so long ago, and I feel your pain.
At 12/24/2006 11:34 PM,
Ann crum said…
Thank you both for your warm thoughts. It's comforting to know others are thinking.
Denise, I will be praying that your pain of loss subsides. Mine has, but Christmas Eve was the day Danny passed away and it was very hard this morning during that time of day when it happened.
At 12/25/2006 12:06 AM,
Unknown said…
You are in my thoughts. It's my best friend's birthday also. She had brain cancer. She died two years ago in September. Losing my best friend still hurts as I think about her twin sister and her children's loss. I can't imagine how you must feel, though. God bless you. *hugs*
At 12/25/2006 12:25 PM,
Lizzy Simpson said…
Ann:
You have been in my prayers for over a year now, you were in my prayers yesterday, and will continue to be in them in the coming days and months. It's true that things can change in an instant - we never know when. Take care, and God Bless,
Lizzy
At 12/25/2006 4:06 PM,
Clickin Mama J said…
You are in my thoughts and prayers. This is my first Christmas since my mom died and it never ceases to amaze me how badly a heart can hurt. Blessings to you.
At 12/25/2006 7:12 PM,
Marcus said…
I'm so sorry for what you went through.
At 12/25/2006 8:55 PM,
DonnaLeigh said…
oh sweetie :(
I have been in your shoes - my husband died almost 4 years ago from a malignant brain tumor. You've just survived your first year of *firsts* if you know what I mean? Every day it will get easier. Every day it gets just a tiny bit better.
((((hugs)))) to you and your family - I hope you were able to find some comfort in today.
At 12/25/2006 8:59 PM,
Anonymous said…
Thoughts and prayers go out to you today (from a fellow postie).
At 12/26/2006 12:10 AM,
Ann crum said…
Thank you all for your kind thoughts and words. I got through Christmas Eve, then I got through Christmas. Yes, it was my year of "firsts" and everything held huge significance for me. Starting over has been the hardest thing I've ever experienced.
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