Going down fast
Every day that draws nearer to Christmas finds me sinking lower. I have watched Christmas movies, listened to Christmas music. I put up a tree and I set out the Nativity scene. I even attempted to wrap a couple of gifts, and there's more to wrap.
I am not in a very good Christmas mood and am on the verge of tears moment by moment.
Little things are irritating me greatly. Like not being able to find the tape for wrapping gifts or not having the right size gift bags on hand. I feel thwarted at every turn.
My house is a mess. And I do mean MESS. That doesn't help at all. And yet I don't have the inner strength to tackle it. So, I just sit and be miserable in the mess.
I really desperately need some help to get through the next few days but I don't think those around me and closest to me fully understand that. They're not trying to be intentionally thoughtless. They just don't get it.
I am not in a very good Christmas mood and am on the verge of tears moment by moment.
Little things are irritating me greatly. Like not being able to find the tape for wrapping gifts or not having the right size gift bags on hand. I feel thwarted at every turn.
My house is a mess. And I do mean MESS. That doesn't help at all. And yet I don't have the inner strength to tackle it. So, I just sit and be miserable in the mess.
I really desperately need some help to get through the next few days but I don't think those around me and closest to me fully understand that. They're not trying to be intentionally thoughtless. They just don't get it.
posted by Ann crum @ 3:55 PM
2 Comments:
At 12/21/2006 8:55 PM,
Anonymous said…
Ann, I am here. Chat me anytime. Love ya, Sis!
At 12/22/2006 7:11 PM,
Anonymous said…
Ann, I am sure this must be a very sad and lonely time for you. Also, I do not think those that are closest to you mean to hurt you. They are probably hurting as well and they think the best way to help you is not talk about your loss and theirs. Some believe silence is golden, but not always.
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