Down days

I’ve been feeling down pretty much all day. I know without a doubt it’s because Thursday was my anniversary. Now we’re heading into the holiday season of Thanksgiving and Christmas, and I can only think I will feel even worse.

I’ve cried some this morning. I expect over the next weeks I’ll be crying more.

I try to stay busy if for no other reason than to keep from thinking about who I’m missing. But I can’t be busy enough every moment to avoid those thoughts.

I can’t even think of planning for Christmas - the tree, decorations, gifts. I wish I could just sleep through it all and wake up on the other side of that day. Especially Christmas Eve, which will be the one year anniversary of Danny’s passing.