Friday afternoon

I was able to get a couple more things accomplished today in town. For now, I'm done but I'm sure other things will come along. I went to the SS office to turn in the monthly check we'd gotten a few days ago and to verify Danny's death. I also went to DHS where I was told our case is still considered open, which means some benefits can be transferred to my name now.

In a couple of weeks I'll need to renew my driver's license. I dread it because of the awful mug shot they always seem to wind up with.

I got news that our van may be done very soon. I'm praying it is. We really need that vehicle here to lighten the load on Elizabeth and her little car.

Yesterday I did get all Danny's clothes off hangers and folded/stacked. I had a meltdown while doing that. Today I got a container to put them all in. Still have to get them in it, but I'm a step closer anyway. I'm keeping a couple of his jackets out for me to wear around here. They have his name on the front.

Maybe this evening I can get Danny's clothes stowed and move a shelf or two into the bedroom. I really need them in there. There's lots of work to do in that room so I can make better use of the space for Ebay and possibly for crafts and sewing.

I got Danny's death certificate today. A lady who works at the local funeral home (the one that came and got him Christmas Eve) goes to where Elizabeth works for lunch every day. So, she gave them to Elizabeth, who gave them to me. I say "them" because I ordered extra copies in case some government entity needed an original. I looked the certificate over carefully and it all seems to be correct and in order.

I've been looking at the classifieds for jobs. I need something where I still won't be away from the kids too much, I think. Yes, they're adult age now, but they're still at home - unmarried - which means they still need some guidance from me. In the meantime, I'm going to be trying to develop or really expand home based business. I guess the word is really "diversify". This means I need to write a plan of action, do some scheduling for myself, and work the plan. I'm still a bit raw from Danny's passing, but I know that if I don't move forward at least in baby steps, I will wind up mired in my own self-pity.

I heard a song on the radio today. Brooks and Dunn - country music. It really touched me, especially the part shared here:

I raise my hands, bow my head
I'm finding more and more truth in the words written in red
They tell me that there's more to life than just what i can see

I can't quote the book
The chapter or the verse
You can't tell me it all ends
In a slow ride in a hearse
You know I'm more and more convinced
The longer that I live
Yeah, this can't be
No, this can't be
No, this can't be all there is

When I raise my hands, bow my head
I'm finding more and more truth in the words written in red
They tell me that there's more to life than just what i can see
I believe
Oh, I
I believe
I believe
I believe
I believe
I believe