Christmas Eve
Danny went home to be with the Lord this morning at 10:30. Brandon and I had just finished cleaning him up, and he suddenly began breathing differently, his eyes were fixed on the ceiling. I called Hospice to get a nurse out here. Before she arrived, he was gone.
Immediately, he was received into Glory. Immediately, he was out of pain and no longer struggling for breath. Immediately, he was made whole again and presented to Jesus.
Did he want to leave us? I don't think so. When is there ever a time when a person is really ready to leave their loved ones. But at the end, I know his focus was on Heaven. He is now healed perfectly.
All our married life we've had our ups and downs, and sometimes it looked real bad. But we chose to love one another regardless. We chose to remain true and faithful to each other and to God. And this is the testament to what love really is - it's not a feeling. Feelings come and go. It's not a duty. Duty breeds resentment. It's a choice. It's a verb. It's real. It's not flighty. It doesn't depend on circumstances.
1 Cor 13:4-8
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
8 Love never fails.
NIV
So now, I face the future without Danny, but not alone. The Presence of the Lord is with me this night. I'm sad for myself and for my children. I can't be sad for Danny. He has his heavenly reward - a reward we all wait for while we still walk in this flesh.
I don't know why at this time in our life God chose to call Danny home. But I know my God is ever faithful, ever merciful, ever gracious, ever loving. He will not abandon me to the world. He will carry me through.
I do not know how unbelievers get by without God. I can't understand it at all.
God bless all those who have prayed and cried with me. God bless those who have extended their generosity and love. God bless those who have shared our pain.
Luke 6:38
Give, and it shall be given unto you; good measure, pressed down, and shaken together, and running over, shall men give into your bosom. For with the same measure that ye mete withal it shall be measured to you again.
KJV
Matt 5:4
Blessed are they that mourn: for they shall be comforted.
KJV
Immediately, he was received into Glory. Immediately, he was out of pain and no longer struggling for breath. Immediately, he was made whole again and presented to Jesus.
Did he want to leave us? I don't think so. When is there ever a time when a person is really ready to leave their loved ones. But at the end, I know his focus was on Heaven. He is now healed perfectly.
All our married life we've had our ups and downs, and sometimes it looked real bad. But we chose to love one another regardless. We chose to remain true and faithful to each other and to God. And this is the testament to what love really is - it's not a feeling. Feelings come and go. It's not a duty. Duty breeds resentment. It's a choice. It's a verb. It's real. It's not flighty. It doesn't depend on circumstances.
1 Cor 13:4-8
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
8 Love never fails.
NIV
So now, I face the future without Danny, but not alone. The Presence of the Lord is with me this night. I'm sad for myself and for my children. I can't be sad for Danny. He has his heavenly reward - a reward we all wait for while we still walk in this flesh.
I don't know why at this time in our life God chose to call Danny home. But I know my God is ever faithful, ever merciful, ever gracious, ever loving. He will not abandon me to the world. He will carry me through.
I do not know how unbelievers get by without God. I can't understand it at all.
God bless all those who have prayed and cried with me. God bless those who have extended their generosity and love. God bless those who have shared our pain.
Luke 6:38
Give, and it shall be given unto you; good measure, pressed down, and shaken together, and running over, shall men give into your bosom. For with the same measure that ye mete withal it shall be measured to you again.
KJV
Matt 5:4
Blessed are they that mourn: for they shall be comforted.
KJV
Labels: Danny journal
posted by Ann crum @ 8:43 PM
4 Comments:
At 12/24/2005 9:47 PM,
Anonymous said…
Ann: I will be praying continually for you and your family over the coming days. Although you will not grieve for Danny, you will grieve for yourselves - your loss and your sorrow. But what a wonderful thing for Danny - to be in the presence of the Lord rejoicing and free of all earthly restraints and problems. Please take care of each other (as I'm sure you will be). Love Lizzy.
At 12/24/2005 10:51 PM,
Anonymous said…
dear Ann and family: I send prayers and soft hugs at this time-I hope in the days to come you will know in your heart your friends stand in the gap with you- huggles, Marilyn Christine
At 12/25/2005 3:56 PM,
Anonymous said…
Ann and family,
I am so saddened to hear of your loss. I know Danny is healthy and whole in the pressence of our Lord so my prayers arefor your family.
Heather C in WA
At 12/25/2005 7:17 PM,
Anonymous said…
Dear Ann, I've 'known' you for a number of years here on calmmoms and have always admired your faith and strength.
I was so sad to read that you lost your loving husband but somehow I believe that through your faith, you will never lose the love because of the bond you two posessed. Please know that my heart is with you at this time and my prayers are with you and your family. If you remember, my own mother went home to be with our Lord 4 days after Christmas in '99, and although it was a great loss to us, we are content that she is happy and loving her new home, where someday she will welcome us with open arms, alongside our Saviour. The same future is yours and you will be with your loving mate again one day. Lord love you and give you comfort at this time. Hugs Marie K
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