Christmas spirit?
Last year I didn't even decorate for Christmas. My time was limited and I just didn't see the point in it anyway. So, this morning I thought I'd get out a few Christmas items and put them around the house. Well, it didn't work out so well.
It's not that I don't have some Christmas stuff. I do. I just don't have the joy in decorating that I used to have. Christmas now has a dark pall cast on it that I just can't seem to lift. As the day draws closer, I find myself sadder.
This used to be my favorite holiday. But, when Danny got sick (so much so that there wasn't even a disability appeal, he got benefits immediately) then passed away, Christmas changed for me forever. Now, I'll just be glad when it's over.
I think I'll just put all the stuff back in the boxes.
Maybe this is why I play music so loudly. To drown everything else out.
Labels: Musings
posted by Ann crum @ 7:05 PM
2 Comments:
At 12/05/2009 8:29 PM,
Lizzy Simpson said…
I'm sorry that you've lost your joy for this time of year. It's understandable, but I'm still sorry. I'll pray for you (as I do every Christmas Eve) - that you'll find joy again in this time of year, and in the memories you have of Danny.
Lizzy
At 12/05/2009 11:24 PM,
Ann crum said…
Thanks, Lizzy. I'm really trying to regain some of the joy I used to have. I know prayers will help.
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