Monday

I've tried to stay fairly busy today. I emptied the drawers in the chest of drawers in the bedroom. It was nearly all kids' stuff including a lot of old homeschool papers that have long since lost their usefulness. Then I moved all my craft and sewing stuff into the bedroom. No, I haven't got it all organized and put away yet. I kind of ran out of steam this afternoon.

Why is it that when we try to clean and organize, everything gets in such disarray?

We had a hearty supper, though. Dirty rice, purple hull peas, collard greens, and baked sweet potatoes. Elizabeth's boyfriend is coming over in a little while and he'll eat then, too.

Yesterday (Sunday) I went to church for the first time in a lot of months. I've really missed the fellowship that church affords to believers. I visited the church my friend, who owns the homeschool store, is a member of. I've visited there before and always feel welcomed. In the afternoon, I visited the church where Elizabeth goes. They hold service at 3 PM - no morning or late evening service. There, too, I always feel welcomed. Her church is the one that fixed our van. Did I mention we have it back now? It's running good and we're blessed to have this vehicle going again since it helps ease up the transportation issues we've been having.

I did some board knitting this afternoon while supper was cooking. It's one of the things I do that really helps me relax.

We got lots of rain over the weekend. It was very much needed. Our state still is considered under drought conditions, but this rain certainly helped. God is good, isn't He?

I will be visiting the doctor tomorrow for a blood pressure checkup, and asking him some questions about other things like why do I have so much pain in the mornings and why is it that after only 10 or 15 minutes on my feet, by back, hip, and leg hurt so much? Honestly, as much as I need to find work of some kind, I don't see how on earth I can hold up to a regular job like this. It's hard enough on me here at home.

Please continue to pray over our finances. I have received a couple of love offerings through the mail, and for those I am deeply grateful. I know God put us on someone's heart. Yet, I know these won't continue and we need a more steady and reliable source in order to simply pay normal bills. Our bills aren't really all that high, but when nothing's coming in, they could be a million dollars and it would be all the same to me.

All we can do is trust God to fill our needs, and I know beyond any doubt that He can do that. That's what faith is...*knowing* something is true without having any concrete proof you can show someone. It doesn't take any faith at all to believe something you can test with your 5 senses, does it? "Faith is the substance of things hoped for; the evidence of things not seen". I'll let you look up where that's found in the Bible.

Does faith stop me from wondering and even a bit of worrying? No. But it drives me to my knees before God. I know He is my Jehovah-Jireh - the God who provides.