Wednesday
When you paint rooms, it seems like everything gets in disarray. So today, I've spent time getting things back where they belong. No pictures hung yet, though. I'm enjoying the bare walls with fresh paint right now, and when I hang the pictures again, I want to make sure they are placed "just so".
While I was sitting here doing some board knitting, I began to look at my own life. I began to wonder where the real "Ann" is hiding these days. I've spent my entire life as a wife and mother. I've enjoyed it all, even the times that weren't so much fun. But I really felt I answered a calling, and because of that felt whole.
Now things are so different. Danny's gone. The children are grown and stretching their wings. I'm left with time for introspection and meditation.
What do I want? I want to follow God's lead. I don't want to be pushed into working a job because "somebody" said it's what I should do. I want to know for certain that whatever I do is to glorify God and not be a mere response to pressures. That doesn't mean a job is out of the picture, it just means that whatever the job is must be according to His will, not mine. I truly believe He will open a door for me to be able to generate income and still minister to others in whatever meager capacity I can.
So now the month of January is over half gone. Time is quickly approaching when regular monthly bills will need to be paid. Do I know where the money is coming from? No. God does, though. He has never let me down so far. I'd love a hint from Him about the plans He has in mind, but I also know that He probably won't even give me that. He'll just supply things in a mysterious, miraculous way - a way that no one can deny is His Hand.
I believe in the promises God has made. I believe He cannot lie.
Jer 29:11-13
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.
12 Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you.
13 And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart.
KJV
Phil 4:19-20
But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.
20 Now unto God and our Father be glory for ever and ever. Amen.
KJV
Matt 6:31-34
Therefore take no thought, saying, What shall we eat? or, What shall we drink? or, Wherewithal shall we be clothed?
32(For after all these things do the Gentiles seek:) for your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things.
33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.
34 Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof.
KJV
While I was sitting here doing some board knitting, I began to look at my own life. I began to wonder where the real "Ann" is hiding these days. I've spent my entire life as a wife and mother. I've enjoyed it all, even the times that weren't so much fun. But I really felt I answered a calling, and because of that felt whole.
Now things are so different. Danny's gone. The children are grown and stretching their wings. I'm left with time for introspection and meditation.
What do I want? I want to follow God's lead. I don't want to be pushed into working a job because "somebody" said it's what I should do. I want to know for certain that whatever I do is to glorify God and not be a mere response to pressures. That doesn't mean a job is out of the picture, it just means that whatever the job is must be according to His will, not mine. I truly believe He will open a door for me to be able to generate income and still minister to others in whatever meager capacity I can.
So now the month of January is over half gone. Time is quickly approaching when regular monthly bills will need to be paid. Do I know where the money is coming from? No. God does, though. He has never let me down so far. I'd love a hint from Him about the plans He has in mind, but I also know that He probably won't even give me that. He'll just supply things in a mysterious, miraculous way - a way that no one can deny is His Hand.
I believe in the promises God has made. I believe He cannot lie.
Jer 29:11-13
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.
12 Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you.
13 And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart.
KJV
Phil 4:19-20
But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.
20 Now unto God and our Father be glory for ever and ever. Amen.
KJV
Matt 6:31-34
Therefore take no thought, saying, What shall we eat? or, What shall we drink? or, Wherewithal shall we be clothed?
32(For after all these things do the Gentiles seek:) for your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things.
33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.
34 Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof.
KJV
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