SWF

That's me. SWF. Single white female. Friday night at the Newcomer's Fellowship at church is when that really hit me. See, they played some games and one of them, the moderator told us to stand if a statement was true. Use hairspray today? I stood. Brush teeth today? I stood. Bite nails? I didn't stand. Single?....I stood. No, I don't *feel* single but the truth is, I am. Now.

The Bible tells us there is no marriage or giving in marriage in Heaven. That's where Danny is now. I'm still here. The Bible also tells us that the marriage vow ends at the death of one of the partners. So, since I believe every word God gave us in His Love Letter to us, I also believe this. Now what do I do with that Danny-shaped hole in my heart?

~Sigh~ I sure miss him. When I've worked the garden beds, thoughts of Danny wash over me because that's something we did together every year. When I pour a cup of coffee, I still wonder if he would think my coffee is ok, or is his still better? Definitely, his was always better. He was a Master Coffee Chef.

Sunday, I spent all day at church nearly. I went to my friend Carolyn's church in the morning. As usual the preaching was right on target. Brother Sam is a joy to hear because he tells the truth. I might come away with sore toes, but not a sore spirit. Afterward they had a potluck dinner to celebrate paying off a bank note. They also had the Lord's Supper. I was invited to stay and share the celebration and the Communion, which I did. My body and my soul were well nourished by the time I left!

Sunday evening at 3 I went to church where Elizabeth goes. I love that place and the people and the preaching as much as anyplace I've gone. They have always treated me like family there. After their service, the youth had a fund-raiser dinner - a Mexican Fiesta. I donated to the cause and ate the delicious meal served there. Elizabeth and her best friend sat at the table with me, so at times I could hardly eat for laughing with them.

By the time I got home, my cup was running over!

Monday was just a regular day around here, but I did get some eBay listings loaded. Today I worked on more listings and will upload those in just a bit.

This afternoon I went to the clinic for med refills and to get copies of my med records. The doctor wasn't there today so they couldn't refill the pain med. I'll go back in two weeks for that. I think I can get by on IB till then. When I got home I made copies of my med records. My kids can tell you, I make copies of everything remotely important that passes through my hands. I don't like to take chances that an original could be lost or destroyed somehow. Plus, I like to have copies for my own benefit in case I need to refer to them later.

I haven't fixed supper today yet. I have some popcorn chicken in the freezer, and French fries, so I'll fix that when it looks like all the kids are home. It won't be good if it's not freshly cooked and hot.

I've started doing "girly" things. Things like painting my nails, froo-frooing my hair, slathering lotion on me everywhere. I used to do these things, but life somehow got in the way of it all. Then Danny got sick and I did nothing except focus on him, which was the exact thing I needed to do. It used to be, though, that when I got all fixed up he'd tell me "You sure look pretty today!" Love is blind. I think he would have said it today, too, though.

However, without a doubt, I always thought he was the best looking man ever. Partly because I thought he was cute, and partly because I knew his heart. The heart plays a huge part in the general appearance of anyone. Still, even before I knew him very well, I loved him. For us both, it was love at first sight. Yes, that can happen and it can last.