Wednesday musings

It's been cold today and will be cold tomorrow. I crocheted Danny a new toboggan to match the scarf I made him last week on the knitting board. He likes them.

Today is our 21st wedding anniversary. 21 years. I don't know that there'll be a 22nd anniversary. We did nothing to celebrate it because it wasn't financially possible, and he really doesn't feel like doing much.

Tomorrow we should find out the results of the CT scan and bone scan he had last week. I dread it. He's having more pain even with the meds he's on. Having more problems staying on his feet more than a few seconds because of the pain.

I spent part of the day in tears. These days come and go.

I wondered if he'd see another Thanksgiving after this year.

I wondered if he'd see another Christmas.

I watched the tribute to Johnny Cash tonight. One of the first songs sang brought me to tears all over again. "I Still Miss Someone". All but the last verse here...

At my door the leaves are falling
A cold wild wind has come
Sweethearts walk by together
And I still miss someone

I go out on a party
And look for a little fun
But I find a darkened corner
because I still miss someone

Oh, no I never got over those blues eyes
I see them every where
I miss those arms that held me
When all the love was there

Will this be my song? Today has been a low day for me.

Pray.